I have always seen myself as a hopeless romantic. A believer in storybook romance and star-crossed lovers. Now...at 40, not so much.
I think it exists. But it exists in the ways that people are born into extreme wealth or geniuses or prodigies. It's not for all of us AND it's rare.
For most of us we have to bust our asses just to keep our existence together. Life's curve balls are more like sucker punches to the groin. You must become a champion of quality time and you fight. You fight for your spouse.
One of the most difficult things to watch is my friends and family go through a break up or a divorce. It's hard to watch the relationship deteriorate. It's hard to watch one spouse harden their heart or not believe that the sucker punches are hitting while the other spouse quietly grieves the death of their relationship.
Watching someone close grieve the loss of their spouse is gut-wrenching. It's one of the loneliest things I have even seen. The one person they had to rely on, to lean on during such an intimate loss is the one who is "gone".
Today while sitting at my desk I was listening to some random playlist on Spotify. John Legend's All of Me started playing.
What sappy lyrics.
Here's the chorus:
Cause all of me Loves all of you Love your curves and all your edges All your perfect imperfections Give your all to me I'll give my all to you You're my end and my beginning Even when I lose I'm winning Cause I give you all of me And you give me all of you.
But here's the deal...it's a beautiful song. I've heard it a million times probably. Today though...today I HEARD the lyrics. And as silly as it may seem, I am falling back into love with the idea that romance exists.
So...if you're struggling with the belief that romance exists here's John Legend and his song All of Me. Someone somewhere felt these words enough to write this song. Someone. Somewhere.